Goals = What Will I Regret Never Tryin' & Where Am I Happy?

Dear Supporters of LWWO

I was having a hard time writing posts. When I had an idea– it tended to have “pity me” “cry for me” “I want attention” messages strewn within the context. Who wants to keep reading about me feeling depressed and unworthy because I don’t have a job? It gets old.

For the past couple weeks I was pretty unproductive. When I wasn’t substitute teaching, I stayed at home and dwindled hours on email and facebook. Or I’d make plans with my friends, saving the job search for “later” which really became “never.”

But then two days ago, after feeling the guilt build up in my belly, my belly yelled at me. “FOCUS!” it bellowed. (Tee hee, my belly bellowed).

So I made 2 lists.

WHAT WILL I REGRET IF I NEVER TRY BEFORE I DIE?
-Traveling to Europe, Canada (Vancouver definitely), Australia, Seattle, Chicago, and Oregon to see if I want to live in those places

-To attempt the acting lifestyle in Los Angles (even if it’s for 6 months). If I never do it, I’ll never know.

-To find and live where my heart and mind truly belong

-To be in a developing country for a period of time (3 months minimum) doing service work. This is either implementing my own improvisation/theater/athletic/nutrition development/life skill program OR working with an organization doing community service with youth which aligns with my ideals

-Act in a theatrical production on a stage with semi-professional/professional actors

-Directing a performance of my own

-Directing a performance of another playwright

-To isolate myself in nature for a couple-few days (2-3 days minimum). I believe it’s good for the soul. (Bahaha.)

-To be in Japan for a period of time (3 months minimum, but longer would be nice. A year maybe?). Preferably with my mother.

-To work with inner-city youth here in the US and implement my own improvisation/theater/ athletic/nutrition development/life skill program or work with an organization that models with my beliefs

WHERE AM I TRULY HAPPY?
-Nature/Outdoors.

-In the theater

-Post a good performance

-Improv practice

-Watching improv

-Post good improv shows

-Motivating my kids in practice and at meets

-Mentoring kids with organization, academics, and developmental/life skills

-Running

-Seeing others accomplish their goals, especially when I gave them guidance

-Seeing others grow/have revelations about their growth, especially with my guidance

-Those rare perfect moments that happen when I’m listening to music, out in nature, or driving in my car

-Eating great food

With these two lists, I combined the overlaps to determine

GOALS

-To be a performer. This includes comedy and theatrical performances.

-To implement a project to help youth/people gain life skills through creative means. Both in the US and a developing country

HURRAY! My belly isn’t so mad at me anymore.

Now - YOU TRY

What A Parent Wants

Back in the day, when I was little, Papa Justice wanted me to:

-go to Duke
-be happy
-and successful
-and do whatever I loved

Back in the day, when I was little, Mama Justice wanted me to:

-become a doctor
-go to Harvard
-or Yale
-have a lot of money
-and buy her a pink limousine

WELL

1) I went to a small private institution that my parents knew nothing of (as all West Coast people don't)
2) I majored in Theater
3) I currently make a very minor income as a sub and tutor

Today, Papa Justice wants me to:

-become famous on youtube
-prune vines
-earn 3K/month
-and be happy

Today, Mama Justice wants me to:

-go to Medical School
-move out
-and buy her a pink limousine